superweird

can there be a sleep when you don't have to wake up anymore? i would like that. i'm ready to empty my head. Probably that kind of sleep will get me down under, but would there be dreams, good dreams or what i fear the most, endless nightmare. It is easy to smile, i should say, but for how long, i'm asking. All i know right now is i'm trying to run away. Sure, i'll be at work, but is no more than a rountine. but What i prefered most is to take a book and go to neverland. i look at all this character, and situation, no matter how weird the thing is described, somehow, i know its real. It's like experimenting with drugs. A world could change instanstly but you know you are still there. There is no such thing like flying pigs, cats with horn or disco lemonade, but deep down, when that thing has been described, it almost felt real. Maybe this is how boredom looks like. I am so happy to exchange my reality with fiction. I rather go down with fantasy rather than to rise and face the bitter truth. Am i wrong to assume life in form of escapism. Would there be peace and beauty? or sweey sincerety? deep down in my mind, i don't know. i just keep on going, and it's the same thing with waking up every morning.