de ej of inersen

Sometimes, when i take a walk around the town, the dream of owning a book-coffee shop surely visit. Operating that kind of business would surely be a big step in my life, even right now, I don't know if I'm really good at it. I know one thing, i'm not that very good at routine. That's the reason why i hated waking up for school. But other than that, i love all the experience that i got from it.

Right now, my company is doing its big shuffles among the staff. The problem is that they like to do it very often. They don't need even a year to transfer someone. It doesn't have any formula, the top guys just shuffle it like we are poker cards. I don't know what is my fate, it's always unpredictable. I wonder if they have bureau at the artic, they also wouldn't hesitate to shuffle mens over there. This shuffle thing is not something to be argued, either you obey or get lost.

Because of this reason, i never let myself too complecent at JB. I'm here as a stranger and forever I will be it. Like many other places in this world, JB does have it excitements but it also have it shits, plus the cost of living is quite high. and another thing, everyone over here just always fancied about Singapore. Therefore, there are no reason why i should be romantic about it. As long as i can do my job, that is who i am.

Do I love my job.. hmmm... that's a though question. I guess a job is always a job. I observe that all of my officemates have their own reason to work at the company. Beside it is something they are really good at, it maybe because of the money for the family. A good wage is hard to earn especially for the semi-profesional like us. I just can't push my luck like my younger days.

The time of dreaming had passed. It's the moment of riding the waves and I must be very careful about it. One mistake and it surely cost a lifetime. I learn about it the hard way, i guess, that's why in these times, you just see me as a cool blooded person. I remember that I can be someone who is really stupid and I really don't want to be in that position again.

In so, what is going to happen next? It seems that is always question and more question. Have I answered it all? I just let the journey tells it. Who knows, maybe one day, i might settle down and open that book-coffee shop. It's a nice dream that i've kept all this time. It doesn't have any politics. And I don't have to think about all those shuffling crap. I just focus on making my customers happy and the bussines runs well. hmmmmm.. I know it's a denial from what i'm living right now, but then, what better things I should think about. Now you tell me.